hello everyone! i'm new here. i'm 26 and my husband is 32. we've been married for 3 yrs now ( we only dated for 3 months then we decided to get married). I'm currently pregnant due in november. before we got married my husband and i have a sex life. but when we got married it started going downhill. we only had sex once in a month, if i get lucky. i'm a sexually active person. i love kissing and foreplay. i love having intimate with my husband. especially, now i'm pregnant it's like the urge of my sexual desire doubled. i'm always the one who initiate to have sex with my husband but i always get turned down. i really do feel rejected and unattractive. it really hurt so bad. i already talked to him about it but nothing's changed. i don't mind him watching porn as long as he doesn't hide it from me. yesterday, i found out that he's watching porn behind my back he doesn't know that i know. so, i asked him to have sex with me he said no. i asked him sweetly when is the last time he watched porn and masturbated he said it's been a long time that he couldn't remember. i didn't get mad at him from lying i just let it slipped. it's like when it comes to porn he has a lot of energy but when it comes to me he's ALWAYS TIRED. WHY ON EARTH HE HAVE TO LIE ABOUT IT? the porn thing really affecting my marriage and i am so depressed. i couldn't even remember the last time we had french kiss and foreplay. i'm starting to despise him. sometimes i don't even wanna stay in the house with him. how come our sex life went downhill we're not even married that long. i can't help comparing him to my ex's. i was happy and satisfied with my sex life before. but now with my husband it's so frustrating. and it's a first time for me to use lubricant because i don't get wet. and when we have sex no kiss and foreplay. then he will ask me "are you still far?" it really a turn off. the longest sex that we had was roughly 10 min. please i really need some advice on what to do. i tried everything that i could think of but he always shut me down. i'm thinking that after i give birth i will never initiate to have sex with me anymore. that i don't wanna have to do anything with him. the anger inside me keeps building up. sometimes i just find myself not even wanting to talk to him anymore and wishing the next time i wake up, i won't feel a thing for him.