Hello everyone,
it is my first time here, I just found this forum and hope God help me to recover.
My problem: my wife confessed that before he met me he had sex with many men (even married ones) and couple of years ago she had recovered from a sexual disease.
She asked me forgiveness for hiding this and I said I forgive her (though dying emotionally inside) but now I don't feel any sexual desire for her. Every time I want to come closer to her I imagine what she did and turns me down, somehow I cannot control my mind. I want forgiveness be real, I decided to forgive but having these thoughts isn't it proving I didn't forgive? I constantly declaring I forgive but it is really hard to turn my body on :(
Is there anyone who has passed and recover of similar situation to share some insights with me?