I'm happy I found this place!

My life has been a roller coaster ride for months now and I am trying hard to  fix things. I recently had an affair on my husband of 7 years. It was not something I wanted, but happened. I made some awful choices and am not proud of them. I was so excited to find Joe Beam's site/book and once I found out the definition of limerence, I KNOW that is exactly what happened to me. I was hooked on the attention and thrill and felt like I was on some type of drug.

I am currently reading Your Love Path, seeing a therapist, and working on my marriage. The affair is OVER! My wonderful husband has basically forgiven me for the affair, but now we are now having trouble communicating and dealing with my emotional problems and behaviors. (currently fighting depression and during the course of everything have realized a lot of past "crap" that has kept me unemotional and distant such as self-esteem problems)

We both love each other and want our marriage to succeed...especially for our little girl! We are each others best friend. I am currently building my "support team" and hope to find some good information and support here. Thanks for having me.

Thank you!! But unless you have a magic pill to make it all go away, there is not much more you can do, LOL!! It's all up to me now.

You've already hepled a ton and thanks to you I know what I need to do! Be honest at all times, build trust (but this will take time), acknowledge my bad choices and say "I'm sorry", and show empathy. My major stumbling block right now is changing my old behaviors. I need to think before I act and watch my impulsiveness.