Hi. I'm new. I've contacted Love Path 911 twice and I'm sure they are losing patience with me. I reach out for help, then get really shy about talking to someone in person on the phone. That was the first time. The second time, was just a couple of weeks ago. We have no income. My husband thought he could support us by trading stocks online. He used up all of our savings and now he doesn't have a job and I don't either. We have a son with a handicap that I feel I need to stay home with, so I don't want to get a job until he moves into the rehab facility.
We are in our 50s and entering a new phase in our lives. As I look back over the years, all I can see is a man who has emotionally abused me and neglected me. He avoids responsibility and all relationships. He sleeps in a separate room and frankly, seems like he's just biding his time, waiting to die. He isn't terminally ill or anything, he just isn't really living. I don't want this. I want a husband that takes care of himself and loves me. I look at the future and if it can be predicted by the past, I expect he won't be there for me if I'm ever sick or injured. Past experience has been that he avoids me and , maybe, if he has the money, he will hire someone else to take care of me. Otherwise I'm on my own. I'm beginning to see the slightest bit of hope as he has been laying flooring he promised to lay a few years ago. Last Christmas, instead of a gift, he promised to put tile in the bathroom and kitchen. I am highly skeptical considering his record of promise keeping.
Communication is less than most people have with casual acquaintances. If I try to make conversation, he walks away.
I read the article about sex in marriage and frankly, it stirs resentment. It seems like our relationship was begun soley on sex. As time went on, it seemed that I was expected to give to him and got nothing in return. No meaningful relationship. Yet, I'm supposed to give him sex anyway? It would be as bad if he would even be considerate. His idea of letting me know he wants sex is to get naked and lie down. It disgusts me and I just walk away. Next thing I know, he snoring. This doesn't happen anymore. Nothing happens anymore.
I'm waiting on God and praying and when we get some money again, I want to go to a seminar. I've read about other marriages that seem hopeless and beyond hope being transformed. That's what I'm hoping for.