I really need some sound advice. Have you ever had to do something where just by doing it you could feel your sole dying a little at a time? I do, I am....... Let me start from the beginning.

2 weeks ago I thought I was in the perfect marriage. I have been with my husband for 17 years, married for 15. We have 2 beautiful girls and are a very loving family. My husband and I never fight, just an occasional disagreement. We always cuddle when we watch t.v and had a very active sex life. Nothing about my life prepared me for what was to come.

On Monday we were intimate, on Tuesday we were intimate...on Wednesday my husband informed me that he was thinking of getting his own place. Before I could get over the shock of this I also found out that he had a one night stand with one of our coworkers. Yes my husband and I work at the same place. The person he choose to have an affair with just happens to be the one person who I have to work side by side with everyday. Customers that we deal with always think we are a mother and daughter team. That's how much we are alike and how much we resemble each other.  she is just 14 years younger.

Now I need my job in order to be able to support my girls and I. I make good money where I'm at and know that I won't make nearly the same any where else. Same for my husband. If my job was to find out about my husbands affair with this girl he will lose his job and so will she. Not that I care about her. So in order for that not to happen I must go to work and work side by side with her and smile the whole time. I did confront this girl and she promised me she would back off of him to save both of their jobs.
Still the damage is done. Every time he comes around us, all I could do is watch them to see if they are still somehow involved. It has only been 2 weeks.

I find myself praying everyday that he would come to his senses and decide he doesn't want to leave. We have to stay together through the summer for we don't have the money to move.  neither of us do. So at home I pretend all is good for the sakes of my girls then I have to do the same at work for the sakes of our jobs.

I don't know for how long I can stand this tall when inside I'm crumbling.

I completely agree with LegalUnion. You need to inform your employer, but brace yourself for the reaction of your husband.

And you never know, it may be the wake up call your husband needs. The Lord has a way of getting people's attention when they are in blatant violation of His Commandments. Sometimes, we can be so stubborn, that's what we need, a heavenly spanking!

It's really a very loving thing to NOT allow sin to continue...If it is allowed to continue, it only causes further damage and hurt to all involved. I will be praying for you and your daughters...